Category Archives: Captain Charisma

Crazy going slowly am I

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Whenever I reached the ultimate heights of boredom as a child I would recite, “I am slowly going crazy, crazy going slowly am I” over and over while I puttered around doing whatever it is I could find to do.  Aaannnndddd OMGOSH seriously – that sounds a lot worse than it really is.

No seriously.

WHAT??  You mean NORMAL people don’t do that?  WhatevvvvER.  Scott Pete sometimes did it too.  We’d recite it together and then get the giggles – yep yep.

I AM SLOWLY GOING CRAZY

True story – 5 minutes ago I bumped my bobby pin holder off my dresser.  I looked down and was like “What a mess.”  And then I said this outloud:

“Sweet!  At least I now have something to do for a minute.”

THAT’S RIGHT!  I talk to myself :)

But I think the most disturbing part of this story is not that I talk to myself but that I was actually happy to clean up a pile of bobby pins.

Before you think I’m TOO pathetic!!

It’s not that there aren’t things I COULD do – of COURSE there are things I could do.  It’s a matter of WANTING to do them.  I’ve done all of the boring stuff – unpacked, cleaned, made my bed – ya know – boring stuff.  And now?  I think I’ve done so many boring things that now I’m not just bored – now nothing even sounds fun!!  Lame.

Goss update:

#3 – sent me my phone via post – I thanked him via text (sms) and I think that’s the end of him.

CC+4 – I sent him this totally groovin’ ‘get your groove thang on’ song bcuz it’s SO HOT except I decided to ruin the song for him by telling him I think about him when I listen to it.  I feel mildly guilty for this – however the mild guilt does not suppress the devilish delight that makes me chuckle at the thought of it.  I will be going on another singles cruise in January – he’ll be there also – only time will tell if we’re ever cruise crushes again … but I doubt it.

Captain Charisma – OMGOSH!  We haven’t talked about him in a LLLLOOOOONNNNNGGGGG time.  But he’s back in the picture bcuz well – he’s hot and he likes American humor.  :)    Ok ok – also because I’m boyless and he always seems to be around when I am free.  :)

North Sydney – seeing him tomorrow – excited but a little nervous too.  AGH!

Work – they’re not giving casual workers any hours until October – so very quiet on that front.  However I went in to say hi and that was fun.

Ok – that’s enough out of me – I think I’ll play eyeshadow for a bit and then go buy nail polish remover.  Sweeeeeet.

x, xo, xx, xoxo, Xx and maybe even XX

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DEFINITIONS AT THE END

Here is an IM Chat from a couple days ago with the one and only MIUB (Most Important Utah Boy.)  I should give a disclaimer here though – in case any of my readers know him – MIUB and I are just friends. In fact we even talk about our dating lives – it’s cool.  Not many guys are cool enough to stay friends with you after a crush. (ex: CC+4.)  [insert look of death.]  But MIUB raised a good topic of discussion – the meaning of Xs, Xxs and Os.  :)

I give strict (non-IM) definitions at the end.  :)

MIUB – hey i have a question for you….when you put just “xx” instead of xoxo, which are those hugs or kisses?

ME – it means kisses – but not like in the creepy way or anything

MIUB – no its cute but i just wasn’t sure which one the x was.

MIUB – i didn’t want to think you were giving me kisses when you were actually leaving them out and just giving me hugs

ME – LOL – that made me laugh.  I don’t think I’ve ever just done a “oo” – that looks kind of weird too.
ME – I should do that to boys who I don’t like though huh?  that’d be so funny!  oh and btw – there are different levels of the “x”s
ME -there’s the ONE x, or the two xx or Xx

MIUB – What does the x mean – just the one?  like a friendship kiss on the cheek?

MIUB – then xx is a nice kiss on the lips but just quick and lips interlocked then the Xx is the big dog?

ME – LOL – I’ve always kind of thought of it as an “x” is a kiss on the cheek, “xx” is the kiss on both cheeks (like Italians do) kinda – and then “Xx” is like a lip-kiss.

MIUB – I was pretty close.  So I usually get the Italian one.

MIUB – ok I’ll take it.

ME – well I’d throw out the other one – but again – I try not to be creepy ;)

MIUB – creepy never came to mind with you.

MIUB – what does this mean XX cause I’m about to drop that on you

MIUB – XX


I love having friends who I can flirt with!!!  It’s the BEST!!! Speaking of which – in an effort to contradict everything I ever write – I took the Captian off my Z list today.  Does this mean I am going back to my “playa” ways?  Not exactly.  I did turn down a REAL date offer this weekend – but you see – the Captain and I don’t date – we just “catch-up.”  :) And I see no harm in that anymore.

DEFINITIONS:

x -

this is used for anyone.  boy or girl, friend or more-than-friend – an “x” is a cute/nice gesture or sign that you care.  I use this all of the time to tons of people.   In fact I don’t think I EVER send an email to my FM or his GF without an “x” at the end.

xx or xo -

very similar to the “x.”  I use this when I want to say, “you’re adorable” or “I’m teasing you.”  If I say something sarcastic and want to make sure they don’t think I was being mean I ALWAYS add an “xx” to the end.   Or with my BFF Crysta – I always sign emails with xo or xoxo.  It just a term of endearment.  :)

Xx -

this one I generally only use for boys.  I USED TO sign my emails to CC+4 with “Xx.”  And to ME this is more of a KISS – though sometimes I accidentally capitalize xs and so it can’t ALWAYS be taken seriously.  :)

XX -

definitely a kiss.  That’s just how it is.

XxXX, XXX, XoXXo -

If you receive any variations of the above – it probably means I have a crush on you.  OR that I’m flirting outrageously with you because I can.  :D

xoxoxoxo or XOXOXOXO-

I sign things like this to my mom – it just means what it means – hugs and kisses.

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Ok well – hope we’re all clear now.  :)

Yours truly,
xx ~Daisy

Oh and here’s one of the new pics hanging in my bedroom – They’re my babies!! :)
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Oh no I didn’t …

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Oh yes. Oh yes I did.   http://twitter.com/australiandaisy

You know that feeling on a REALLY super hot scorching day when your mouth is dry and your throat is parched? The feeling when you finally get your hands on an ice cold bottle of water (but not aquafina because aquafina is gross) – you know that feeling?   You take a sip of refreshing water and let out an insuppressible “ah.”

That’s how I felt tonight when I got home and took a shower.  I’ve been awake since 1:30am this morning and after a 3.5 hour flight, 10 hours at school and an hour bus ride home – it felt GOOD to be home and clean!!!  :) YAY for Daisy!!!

I have a few more “YAY!” moments to share.

  • I’ve officially earned a Graduate Certificate in Peace and Conflict and can now tick the box “Graduate Degree” on surveys or applications.  No more ticking just a “Bachelors Degree” for me – I’m moving up in the nerdy world.  ;)
  • I am officially enrolled in the Masters of Digital Communication and Culture program at the University of Sydney.
  • In order to fully immerse myself in my new digital adventure (and because I’m studying the effects of Twitter in school) – I just signed up for a Twitter account.  I told myself I would NEVER EVER EVER do this.  But now that I’ve done it - YAY!!!  :) :) Do you have a Twitter account?  I want to follow you!! :) (this is my twitter backdrop – I took the pic myself :))

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  • Other than that – I’ve found a couple jobs I want to apply for and I have the day off tomorrow.  :) SUPER YAY!!!

In other news – these are the things on my mind:

  • How is it that the people you wish most to avoid are the ones who regularly show up in your life? And the ones you would LOVE to run into again (like the hot Kiwi eying me) disappear?
  • How is it that Captain Charisma consistently contacts me at just the moment when I’m feeling neglected by the other men in my life?  He has perfect timing every time.  And his message today was thoughtful and considerate.  Plus – surprisingly – he always watches my new FB and youtube videos.  Who would have thought?
  • Is it really true that guys like UDB don’t give up?  I got a message from him too.
  • I read an article about Google for school.  OhmyWOW!  Anyone else know exactly how much power that company wields?  And are the critics right?  Is Google making us stupid? Click HERE to read a great article about it.  Crazy.

Headed back to Bondi – and THANK YOU to FM’s GF :)

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It’s only 8:15pm Sydney time and I am EXHAUSTED!!! I’ll be asleep no more than 5 minutes after hitting “publish” on this post. Tomorrow morning a cab is picking up FM and me at 1:30am Sydney time – AGH!!!   That’s SO EARLY!!!  We’re headed back to Bondi tomorrow.

So first off I want to give a public shout out to FM’s GF.

THANK YOU!!!

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What a fantastic week I’ve had!!!  She was so kind to let me stay with her while I was here in New Zealand!  Not to mention it wouldn’t have been as much fun without her!!!  :) :) I miss having her around back home – and can’t wait til she gets back!!  Love you!!  And I appreciate your hospitality!  xoxo

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Oh and p.s. – I’ll have a batch of flourless peanut butter cookies waiting for you when you get back.  :) YUM!!!

Ok – so even though I’ve had an amazing week  and can happily cross off “Visit New Zealand” from my 101 list – it will be good to get back to life.  School, homework, and warm weather are all calling my name!  But for now – please enjoy pics from my Wellington CBD (Central Business District) City tour.  In the next week I’ll try and post pics from scenic New Zealand.  I found a little bit of heaven while I was here – I can’t wait to share it with you all!!!

and another p.s. – Captain Charisma wants to meet up again.  Of course he does.  Hmm.  Apparently he’s back in town.  Ordinarily (last semester) I wouldn’t have thought twice about it – I’d just say, “When and where?”  He’s hot, smart, with second, third and fourth doses of SUPER hot … not to mention FM and his GF haven’t forbidden it … BUT …  well … I don’t have time to analyze this now but I’ve found myself in a bit of a quandary.  Hmm … what to do – what to do … ??

Nice GUY vs DB – and NEDAW

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Hello everyone!  So before we get into the difference between a nice guy and a DB, I wanted to take a moment and let you know that it is National Eating Disorders Awareness Week.  Eating disorders are a pretty serious thing and if you have one – seek help!  I’m thin now – but 8 years ago I weighed 28 – yes TWENTY EIGHT – pounds less than I do now.  I was the same height. Here is a pic of me TODAY.  I went out walking with my FM and YES – I do look like a disaster and could stand to lose 10 lbs but that’s not the point.  :) Can you imagine me 28 lbs (12.7 kg) thinner?

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Here is a short and moving 4 minute video on Eating Disorders.

OK – NOW to the FUN STUFF!!!!  :) YAY!!!

I’d like to give a shout out to my Ultimate BFF –

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! :)

This is an email from my FM.  UDB has been contacting me a LOT.  And he also has been trying to book time with me a week in advance!!!  I almost agreed to see him again … until FM sent me the following.

Daisy,

It seems UDB is not going to surrender and won’t accept rejection. He will keep trying until he gets his way..

Here’s some definitions of the term “lets catch up”:

if it’s from a past fling (especially players like UDB or Captain Charisma)
“catch up” means – let’s meet so I can use my great talents of persuasion, (cos’ I know I’m good), and hopefully we’ll pash [make-out] later

if its from a good friend (eg BFA or Matty Matt)
“catch up” means – its been ages, what’s going on lately? You’re fun to hang out with.. (No other motives).

see the difference?

Players:

- won’t call you during the week just to say hello but may call you to arrange a ‘catch up’
- will contact you once a week. That leaves him 6 other days to go out with other girls during the week.
- will arrange to catch up last minute if he’s in the area. (booty text)
- won’t meet your flatmates when he comes over to the house
- too cool to hang out with you at a party, in case there may be better girls around or other cool friends
- will call you after the party’s over and he hasn’t scored yet

Back to UDB.
He’s trying much harder now cos’ you’ve been rejecting him. He’s never worked so hard to get a woman before, so it’s a good challenge and will be a great ego boost if he gets you again.   Remember how bad he made you feel after your last date? There is no excuse and should be no more chances for him.

Why?
- He’s a tool
- He does not treat you right
- He’s got other choices
- You’ve got better choices and meet men everytime you step out
- He just wants to pash, you want substance and they are lining up
- Don’t lower yourself to be with him
- You’re not easy
- You have to be a bi*c# sometimes & teach idiots a lesson

There’s lots more but this is not a 1000 word essay.

later. x

So there you have it.  A complete breakdown of a DB.  :) Hope you enjoyed it!  My FM makes some very good points.  And while we’re enjoying things :) please enjoy the other pics of Bondi that I took today on our walk:

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Happy Thursday!!  You should all be happy to know that I have said “no” to the last three requests to “catch-up” with UDB.  :)

Nerdy, Social Butterfly Pioneer Discovers Top 30 Novels in History

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First and foremost, thank you to everyone who left comments on my last post and for the emails and IMs!!! Everything said was soooo helpful!!  This is a BIG decision and I only have 6 days to decide so it was nice to get input.  THANK YOU!!!  :) One particular thing said by Emily really touched home with me, “Crying doesn’t make you weak; it makes you human.”  That’s something I need to remember.

Today, in an attempt to figure things out, I met with the Director of the Dig. Comm Dept.  It was encouraging AND discouraging all rolled up into one!  Oh boy – what a trip.  Ok so the bad news is apparently this is a brand new program and as such they have no support staff, no internships, and no clue. :) The good news is that BECAUSE this is a brand new program I can turn it into whatever I would like.  CC+4′s encouraging words were, “Sounds like you’re going to have to be your own Pioneer.  All the great ones are.  No worries.  You are the one who is going to make your career not the classes at school.” He’s right.  And I guess great minds think alike because I had already discussed with the Director which classes outside of the department I would like to take AND the possibility of my heading up a committee or club for the department.  lol.  A nerdy, social butterfly pioneer. Hmm … I guess it could be worse.

In social butterfly news – Captain Charisma wants to catch-up tomorrow.  And then I’m supposed to catch-up with the Ultimate D.B. on Friday (though FM says it doesn’t matter how much UDB tries – he shouldn’t get another chance – we’ll see…)  Sunday I’ve been invited to a couple parties.  Oh and today, besides playing Dr. Phil to some girl he had a crush on during a short cruise over a month ago, (poor CC+4 – he can’t seem to get rid of me)  CC+4 put me on to the song “Hot Thing” by Talib Kweli – it’s hot.

In nerdy news - tonight – instead of watching TV like normal people do – I took Modern Library’s Top 100 Novels in History and cross referenced it with Radcliffe’s Top 100 Novels in History.  By assigning numerical values to each list I discovered the Top 30 Great Novels in History (the lists only had 44 in common and the last 14 weren’t ranked particularly high.) SO – yeah – fascinating isn’t it?  Oh wait …

FYI – I plan on reading all 30 – or re-reading as the case will be with a few of them.  :) Here’s the list for my fellow readers – ordered  according to ranking:

  1. The Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald
  2. Ulysses by James Joyce
  3. The Grapes of Wrath by John Steinbeck
  4. Lolita by Vladmir Nabokov
  5. The Sound and the Fury by William Faulkner
  6. A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man by James Joyce
  7. Brave New World by Aldous Huxley
  8. 1984 by George Orwell
  9. Catch-22 by Joseph Heller
  10. Invisible Man by Ralph Ellison
  11. Native Son by Richard Wright
  12. Slaughterhouse-Five by Kurt Vonnegut
  13. Animal Farm by George Orwell
  14. To the Lighthouse by Virginia Woolf
  15. As I Lay Dying by William Faulkner
  16. The Sun Also Rises by Ernest Hemingway
  17. The Catcher in the Rye by J.D. Salinger
  18. Sons and Lovers by D.H. Lawrence
  19. All the King’s Men by Robert Penn Warren
  20. Go Tell it on the Mountain by James Baldwin
  21. A Passage to India by E.M. Forster
  22. On the Road by Jack Kerouac
  23. Heart of Darkness by Joseph Conrad
  24. Howards End by E.M. Forster
  25. Tender Is the Night by F. Scott Fitzgerald
  26. A Farewell to Arms by Ernest Hemingway
  27. The Wings of the Dove by Henry James
  28. The Age of Innocence by Edith Wharton
  29. An American Tragedy by Theodore Dreiser
  30. A Clockwork Orange by Anthony Burgess

Have a happy day!  I haven’t forgotten about pics for SYTYCD – I’ll try and get to that tomorrow.  :)

I need more in life than parties and pretty faces

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My favorite part of SYTYCD was the song below. I’ll post pics from it tomorrow.  :)

Today I went to a killer ABSOLUT party in Bondi (though in order to get in I had to change my name to “Adrea.”)  It was worth it!  SO FUN!  But now I’m beat!!!  According to the people I was with there were “heaps” of up and coming stars at the party plus a couple full blown celebs (umm … I think that’s supposed to be cool? refer to title of post) and then Of COURSE Captain Charisma was there (but of course HE didn’t have to change his name to get in like I did – because OF COURSE it was already on the list. roll my eyes.  He’s on every list to every exclusive party EVERYWHERE!)

He stopped and said “hi” and then sent me a text later – and then called me too. LOL!  I declined his offer to play tonight. As I’ve said before, Captain Charisma is ridicously good looking but not relationship material and tries to kiss me every time we “catch up” – which is flattering – and he is a good kisser – but … well … I’m over the part of my life where pretty faces are all that matters.  Now I’m looking for a little more substance.  It also wouldn’t hurt if his initials had a “+4″ on the end of them … then he’d have substance AND be hot.  :)

Hey but remember the snowman video I posted? (click here to view it) Apparently the good old Captain stepped outside of his usual self-absorbtion and watched it on my FB page.  And now takes delight in teasing me for it.  Roll my eyes.  I think I liked it better when he was completely self-absorbed. He even asked how my test on Saturday went!!! Say what??  CC+4 hasn’t even asked me that.  Hmm … the Captain really MUST be keen on catching up.  LOL!

Oh I ALMOST FORGOT!!!  I met some dude who used to host a show on TV a few years ago – but who cares.  Anyway – Mr. A list (roll my eyes) asked me for my number.  Then sent me a text later saying, “Admittedly, the process of getting your number didn’t go as smoothly as I’d liked!  That aside, it was still very nice meeting you and hope to be in touch soon.”  HAHA!  I guess even attractive actors who have had moderate success still get nervous around girls. lol.  Kinda cute.

The only problem?  He’s one of Captain Charisma’s friends…  (Roll my eyes.  It seems my friend Captain Charisma knows everybody who’s anybody – which is why I call him Captain Charisma.)  Oh the life I lead … I love it – but with my solid family values upbringing – well – I can’t help noticing how entirely empty the lives of these people are.  Sure I was at the party too – but this is their life day-after-day.  Just one party after another.  With lots and lots of alcohol.  It’s fun for me in doses – but I’m looking for a bit more …

Facebook pictures mean “Call me”

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The pictures below (the Sculptures by the Sea ones) made their debut on my Facebook page yesterday – approx the same time they made their debut here.

I don’t post pictures very often on Facebook  (I used to be a Facebook maniac but then I deleted like ALL of my pictures because I was so “over it” – I know – I’m cool like that.  ;)) Ok – so I decided to post the Sculpture ones because they’re purrty and then I threw in the one of ME (see below) for good measure because it was time to post a “I still look about the same-just fatter” picture in case people were wondering if I disappeared to the other side of the planet and turned into a gorilla (because that’s totally rational.)

So completely out of the blue I got a call from an old “friend” today.  He wanted to catch up for coffee (except I don’t even drink coffee.)  I found it a bit unusual that he called because I haven’t talked to this old “friend” in a REALLY long time.

But then whadayaknow?  I got a call from him TODAY!! Apparently he saw the new picture on Facebook and wanted to call me and tell me how much he liked it.  It WAS very nice for him to call.  But I have trouble not being a tiny bothered that this “friend” completely ignored me for like EVER until suddenly, because of a Facebook picture, he remembered he’s still attracted to me.  Is that what it takes now in today’s society to rekindle interest?  We now have to post Facebook pictures??

Anyway, I did catch up with this “friend” for old time’s sake and we snuck away from a party to talk for a bit.  But when I got back to the party Davide had already left ( and that sucked big time because without Davide there I got cornered by some other people who remembered my name but I couldn’t remember their names and they were drunk AND offended but seriously how hard is it to remember one girl’s name that is DAISY which isn’t common and who is AMERICAN and a REDHEAD – and then how hard is it for ME to remember 40 people’s names at a party where it’s dark and I am meeting all them for the first time?  Oh and THEN some other guy kept trying to hold my hand WHAT? Where did that come from?  Why in the world did he think that was acceptable?  But he was a friend of a friend so I couldn’t be too rude  – AGH!!  Tonight!!  as soon as I felt I could leave without being rude – I left.  Alone. YAY!

Hope you all have fabulous weekends!  Mine has been peachy.

Oh and one last thing (as if this post weren’t long enough already) I broke a cardinal rule today.  I checked out someone’s Facebook page.  A someone in whom I have been interested.  WHY DAISY?  Why did you do it?  That’s a super big NO-NO!!! I HAVE checked his page before and it didn’t phase me.

But THIS time – like a month after the last time I checked it – I felt something I haven’t felt for a long time and it’s very unhealthy.  I actually almost sorta kinda in a way may have been like “ugh! stupid skanks!” in MY HEAD and in the most juvenile immature way possible.

But for real – stupid skanks.  It’s not HIM – no no no – it’s THEM.  ;) Because that’s totally rational too. I shouldn’t even CARE!!!  He lives back HOME!  I live in Bondi!  Why do I care? I shouldn’t.  And I don’t.  It’s just that TODAY there happens to be a lot of stupid girls back home who are skanks.  ;) Tomorrow I’m sure I’ll think they’re all peachy too.

p.s. thanks to an anonymous comment from “Voice” I’ve decided I was being a brat and I should focus more on the fact that at least he CALLED.  It was nice and much nicer than if he had just sent a Facebook message.  So thanks “Voice” – you are right. Except for the unicorn vomit part. 

Important Updates :)

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Ok so quick boy updates – and then I have to do TONS of homework before class and try and get a quick work-out in because I’m still as big as a whale.

1. BFA has nominated himself to be my new motivational Lose-Fat trainer. Should I take offense to this? I’ve decided no. I may be a whale but I’m not like a FAT whale. I think he just wants to see me at my best – which means WORK OUT, WORK OUT! Hence my decision to go jogging in a couple minutes.

2. Scary Scary Freaky Boy sent me ANOTHER message. Last night it was simply, “I still don’t understand why you don’t want to go for a walk with me.” Hmm … a walk in a foreign country alone with a psychotic man … yeah I don’t understand why I don’t want to either …

3. Captain Charisma. Didn’t think I’d ever be mentioning him again in this blog. With the one exception of Most Important Utah Boy, I don’t chase boys. I don’t call. I don’t make online social network friend requests.

So when CC told me he never makes social network friend requests himself, because he doesn’t have to (roll my eyes!!!) I assumed we would never really hear from each other again because… ya know … I wasn’t going to make the request… he wasn’t going to make the request… and he’s now in a foreign country where we can’t have a chance meeting.

Ok – so long story short – Guess who broke their rule? Not me! Aww – I still don’t think we’ll ever see each other again but it means I actually crossed his mind even a half a world away …

4. Most Important Utah Boy – last and most certainly making a slow progression to least :( is MIUB. Ah so sad … I still like him. We IMed this morning and he complained that he was logged onto skype this weekend and I never did. Huh – that’s weird. Why didn’t he just send an email telling me to log on? Hmm …

Then he suggested that we skype TODAY. And when I explained I couldn’t skype today (too much homework, I have class and need to work out,) he told me that today is really the only day he can because he has dates every other night.

huh. So am I supposed to cater to his dating schedule?

Then he said, “I am only suggesting a skype tonight because I’m sure you’re getting pretty boy lonely in Australia. Thought you’d want a fix.”

Boy lonely? HA! Oh MIUB you surprise me. Thank goodness you don’t read this blog!!! :) No sweetie – I haven’t been boy lonely and if you were really interested in making sure I’m not homesick you would bother to contact me more than once or twice a week.

Tuesday – oh wait – it’s Wednesday

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I went and saw “Mamma Mia!” last night with My Flattie and Dr. Sarcastic. After the movie Dr. Sarcastic and I talked for a long time. He gave me some advice with regard to boys (e.g. that I should avoid all men like Captain Charisma [even though he doesn't know a single thing about CC] and that I should confess stupid stuff to Most Important Utah Boy.) I’m think I’m going to go ahead and ignore all of his advice because 1 – I’m too scared of rejection and 2 – he is unfairly judging CC based on CC‘s amazing good looks. :)

After the movie I met up with Captain Charisma (much to Dr. Sarcastic’s dismay) and lucky me, CC thankfully chose not to make another comparison between my appearance last night and the previous nights. YAY!


Class went much better yesterday and I’m starting to make more friends. YAY! Today I bought the last book I need and did more grocery shopping. I think I’m getting the hang of Australian grocery shopping – except for the crazy run-away grocery carts that are absolutely IMPOSSIBLE to control.

I’m serious. You THINK I’m full of it. How could a grocery cart be impossible to control? Well, you try pushing around a cart that has four, extremely well greased 360 degree swivel wheels. You can’t make the cart turn – why? Because the wheels are independent of the cart. Turning the cart does not necessarily make the wheels move in the right direction. You could go in 43 circles before you can get that blasted thing to turn a corner down an aisle. And you can forget trying to push that thing around on slanted ground. I looked like I was dancing a ballet when I tried to push and pull the cart to the car. The concrete was slippery smooth and with no traction I swear that thing came alive and had a mind of it’s own.


I’m currently in love with the song “American Boy” by Estelle. Oh – I LOVE it, however I must bitterly admit that the song reminds me of MY American Boy (MIUB). :( No worries though … it’s like Captain Charisma’s favorite song right now too and so it’s slowly starting to remind me of him. Especially because he says to me “Will you be my American Girl?” to the tune of the song. At least CC doesn’t have a problem with American girls!!!!

The only other little issue to note is Scary Scary Freaky Boy. Most Important Utah Boy warned me that hanging out with Scary Scary Freaky Boy may have given him the wrong impression but I was like “Nah!” thinking that because I told Scary Scary Freaky Boy that I like Most Important Utah Boy from back home that he would get the hint!!! I was soooooo wrong.

So wrong.

SSFB and I went to Centennial Park together and I didn’t flirt with him even one bit! You may find that difficult to believe but look – I fess up to my flirtations. This wasn’t one of them!!! I prattled on and on about MIUB and about Utah and blah blah blah – I didn’t walk next to him – I didn’t bat my eyes at him – I didn’t give him one of my looks. AWKWARD was written all over my body language and my face the entire time because I’m not attracted to him and because he’s not social or engaging. Plus he kept complaining about this girl from our church who wasn’t interested in him and then he started saying that though he didn’t know for SURE – he could guess that her moral character was shady. HOLD UP!!! Umm … hello? WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU SCARY SCARY FREAKY BOY? That’s really bad gossip – and you shouldn’t be telling me things like that about a mutual acquaintance.

Anyway – again – I was distant and non-engaging myself. You would THINK that he would just leave me alone right?

Wrong.

So wrong.

He asked me to hang out with him the next day. I ignored the text. He sent me a frowny face because I didn’t reply and that one text was what solidified I would never see him again. Oh no you don’t! Not on me. I will not tolerate someone trying to make me feel guilty. Uh uh – no way. I had a 4 year relationship with a guy who controlled me by using my guilt against me. I felt guilty for EVERYTHING – including the way I loaded the dishwasher because ya know – I SHOULD have known how to load it correctly. (roll my eyes) So yeah – I don’t put up with that now. And I will not see him again – period. full stop.

Even though I have ignored him for 8 solid days in a row – he texts or calls me every single day. I never reply – I never answer. He started calling from mystery numbers in the hope that I would be tricked into answering. NOPE!!! And then last night – even though we haven’t talked for over a WEEK he asked me to please send him pictures of me.

PSYCHO.

I think that about updates my blog. Have a great day!!