It’s no secret I work on my personal development by seeing a counselor. She’s pretty freaking cool except today we were talking about that blasted sea salt diet and how I signed up for a total fad diet when I didn’t need to lose weight, she goes, ”It’s sad isn’t it? The hold narcissism has on you.”
Umm – WHAT??? then she tried to back track and be like, “Oh narcissism isn’t that bad – it’s just another way of saying vanity.” But the damage had already been done. She called me narcissistic! Me? Narcissistic? I mean I only have a blog dedicated to my life, I participate in photo projects that include taking a picture of myself every single day for a year, and I like to dance in front of the mirror. What’s so narcissistic about that?
ok ok – maybe she had a LIL bit of a point. But only a LIL bit. Then she goes, “I think you should put away your scale and your mirrors for a week.” AND to add insult to the injury, she said, “Don’t worry, most people who are narcissistic just have really low self-esteems and we already knew you had a low self-esteem.”
Look – I was already FLOORED by her narcissistic accusation. SHOCK! Hello?? She wasn’t supposed to be so BLUNT! And then she tells me to give up my scale and MIRRORS for a week?? And tells me my narcissism is a front for low self-esteem and feelings of inadequacy. Say WHAT? I stood up to leave (the session was over) and she added, “Oh and this includes reflections in buildings or glass – but you can look at your face in the mirror if you want.”
I walked out of her office in complete and utter disbelief. I’m still in a little bit of disbelief. And then on the way home when I realized how many reflections I had to STOP myself from looking into – HAHAHAHAHAHA that’s when I decided – ok – I’ll do it. But just because I CAN – even though you all don’t believe that I can. :)
Tonight – here’s what I’ll be dancing to – with no reflection. My mirror is covered up. Oh dang. Can I really go SEVEN DAYS???