Ok so my horoscope project is coming to – mostly – an end. I’m still checking it on a daily basis but I’m a little bitter at it right now.
A little bitter at a horoscope?? Yeah – that’s right. Why?? Because it’s out to get me. NO FOR REAL!
FIRST it has me use North Sydney as a distraction from CC+4. Which was actually a good thing because I need to let him go – completely.
BUT THEN I find that I really don’t want North Sydney as a distraction. He’s my friend and he lives in Australia and GUESS WHAT?? I’m content with things the way they are. AAANNNDDD the very same day I decided this I read my horoscope which said to be content with him as my friend. YES CRAZY!! I READ THAT AFTER I MADE MY DECISION!!!! It was like the FIRST day I didn’t have to TRY to make my horoscope come true.
So I moved on – and 2 days later would you ever guess that CC+4 – I don’t even want to talk about him. But I’m listening to the new song he sent me right now – and I’m – I don’t even know what – but I don’t appreciate my horoscope conveniently taking my life in a direction that might let CC+4 back in!!!!! Out of all the boys in my life – he scares me the most. No – not because HE is scary – but because liking him puts my heart on the line. The other boys? They’re safe. CC+4?? Not Safe.
Ok we’ll stop here – with a few little lines from the song I sent him,
“Hands down, I’m too proud for love.
But with eyes shut, it’s you I’m thinking of. But how we move from A to B can’t be up to me cuz you don’t know who I was before you…
basically if you see a change in me – I’d be losing – so I just ignore you.
Cuz you’re not mine, not mine.
But maybe in time
I’ll tell you, I’m a little bit, a little bit, a little bit in love with you.
“I guess that I’m a little bit, a little bit, a little bit in love with you.”
Pic of the day – 12 and 13
Oh and HHEEEYYYY – my lil bro is back in the blogosphere. Life sucks – and tomorrow is the same …